A Peculiar Thought: Jan 7, 2011

I saw an article on gizmodo.com yesterday-

The Agonizing Last Words of Programmer Bill Zeller

Bill Zeller was a talented programmer whose work we’ve featured on Lifehacker. He took his own life on Sunday and left an explanation that I think it’s important you read. Zeller was a victim of sexual and psychological abuse. It’s clear from his writing that the abuse left him unable to interface with the world in any way that didn’t leave him feeling he was too sullied to have the same experiences that he thought others had. He had a self-described “darkness”, which despite his prostration it’s clear he handled more ably than perhaps he ever realized. Programming was a solace, but only temporarily. Zeller never felt he could escape the things that had happened to him because he carried his torment with him everywhere.

More info about the incident can be found here Zeller GS, 27, dies in hospital.

Do you read his entire suicide note if you are so inclined- Zellers Suicide Note

One thought came to my mind.. If the way people treated him was behind his suicide, why not take them out along with him?

If someone is going to kill himself, why not first kill those who pushed him into that situation? You cannot incarcerate dead people, and what people think about the person after his death is inconsequential.

In any case, it is both fitting and just. Even killing the offspring of such tormentors is acceptable. It comes down to reciprocity.


  1. Days of Broken Arrows
    January 8, 2011 at 2:29 am

    Abuse victims killing their attackers really isn’t revenge, because once your’e dead, you probably don’t know it.

    The question is: why don’t abuse victims torture their abusers? or get awful revenge on them? As a victim of abuse myself (my body is permanently damaged by it, like Zeller’s) I think it comes down to the abuser still having psychological sway over the victim. It’s like the elephant who was tied to a string for a long time, then let go, but still think he’s tied up.

    Studied have shown abuse re-shapes the brain in a way other experiences don’t. So my guess is that abuse victims see the world in a different way than you might. Since we obviously can’t exact revenge, maybe you should offer the service. How about starting a cash-only business where we can pay you to get revenge on our abusers?!

    • Nestorius
      January 8, 2011 at 4:24 am

      why can’t you get revenge by yourself?

      I doubt that those ‘studies’ are another scam designed in order that the abused doesn’t get revenge.

  2. marlon
    January 8, 2011 at 8:09 am

    Honestly…I can’t go as far as killing the tormenter.
    But better to beat the cowardly abuser to a pulp than kill himself.

  3. almost 40 yov
    January 12, 2011 at 10:34 am

    Uhm, guys.
    He killed himself BECAUSE he didn´t want to kill OTHER people?
    It´s right there.

    What makes you guys think he´d stop with his tormentors once he started with them?

    This is indeed a chilling example of how to manipulate a human being from earliest age. Normally when “professionals” do this the child splinters into multiple personalities that can then be literally programmed.
    I´ll leave it to your deduction powers as to what ends these, oh lets call them “mind controlled entities”, are used.

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